Why my traumatic wake-up call was enough for us all.
A rude awakening taught me to savor everything. And I mean everything. It happened 19 years ago, leaving a watermark over my life. Leaving an imprint on my family. Branding my mind and heart with the words, BE HERE NOW.
I’m sharing this with you to save you some time, and maybe even some suffering.
Living a fulfilled life has nothing at all to do with income. Here’s why.
For years I ran what outsiders perceived as a successful holistic business. By many standards it was successful. My workshops, classes and private sessions were always booked. I left my office every day feeling satiated. My heart was full. I was living a life I had dreamed about for so long, one where I got to share my gifts with the world through yoga, reiki, and intuitive coaching. But financially, I was always just getting by.
By society’s standards, just getting by isn’t enough.
Because a good man is hard to find.
“A good man is hard to find.”
I remember my mom saying these words to me when I wanted to start dating. The words pressed pause in my psyche and made me question my heart. Was the guy who asked me out not good? Was my mom giving me this warning for a reason? Did she not trust my judgment? Or, were good men really as rare as my mom said they were?
Being a writer used to feel like a curse, until one traumatic event transformed it into a blessing.
Years ago I tried to give up writing when I realized all of my good work came from heartache and loss. I grew tired of squeezing my bleeding heart onto the page. I got caught up in the quick fix movement, you know, that self-help world where every author has found the key to some semblance of contentment.
I just wanted to be happy like everyone else.
Get emotionally naked.
Six years ago, I chose to leave a man who wouldn’t talk. When things got emotional, he would work and work and work. I didn’t pester him to talk. I thought if I let him be, he would emerge with words and we would feel connected once again.
But he never emerged.
Soul Writer. Single Mama. Life ponderer. Nature Lover. Therapist. Introvert. HSP & Empath. Life is my playground and each day a blank canvas.